"Bella, I'm having the greatest time with you, I don't know if I have… the strength…to stay away from you anymore."
Her face turns as serious as mine and she responds.
"Then don't."
Wait ….What? I stare at her for what seems like ages. I can't believe that I said that, and worse I cannot even begin to understand what she means by her answer. I must look like an idiot with my mouth hanging open, and I'm positive drool is making an appearance. I blink a few times shaking my head to see if my brain starts working again. I decide to go with the honesty approach, if I know anything it's that I'm not staying away.
"I won't." I caress her cheek with the back of my hand and she leans a little bit towards it. I can feel the heat from her blush on my hand, it's delicious and all I want is to wrap her warmth all over myself. But I know I can't, she will never want to be with someone like me and that was already established. She must be physically attracted to me, that's normal, but I'm sure that's as far as it goes.
I give her a warm smile and start the engine again.
"Let's go, I don't want you to be tired tomorrow, it's late."
"That's true." She whispers. The rest of the ride is spend in almost complete silence, apart from the occasional chuckle, still caused by the memories of her near carjacker experience. When I stop in front of her building she leans her back on the door facing me.
"Edward, I had an amazing time with you. I don't know what it is, but I feel like I can be myself around you. I end up telling you things that not even my family knows about. I'm very happy to have found a friend like you here in Seattle."
Ouch…. Friend, I knew it. That's all I am.
"I've never been friends with a woman before." Did I just say that out loud? It was so low that I don't know if I said it or if it was just in my head. Did that sound right at all? Maybe she'll think that I have a one track mind…
And you don't?
I don't know, do I?
For the most part yes, even when you're thinking about work, sex is involved.
That's true.
"Of course you have, what about Alice and Rosalie?" Oh, so I guess I said that out loud.
"That's different, they are my frother's girls. It's a given. And I'm really not that fond of Alice." She slaps me playfully in the arm and I laugh.
"That's a lie and you know it! What are frother's?"
"It's what Emmet, Jasper and I call each other, It's like friends plus brothers." And now it sounds gay to me.
"Aw, that's so sweet!" Yep, definitely gay.
"So, I can become like your Frister, you know Friend plus sister." Oh Hell no! "Or maybe it's a little early for that, but I think we can get there." She seems really hopeful about it. Shit.
"A man and a woman can't be friends. They either had sex, or are having sex, or want to have sex." What the fuck is wrong with me? I can't believe I just said that! But it's true, besides Alice, Rosalie, Esme and my mother, all the other women in my life fall into that category, even Kate. She wasn't with Peter yet, and it was a drunken one night stand sexcapade, but it happened.
Bella looked stunned by my idiotic comment. "That's bullshit Edward! And sexist! I can't believe you just said that! Do you really think that?" she throws her hands in the air to emphasize how angry she is. I really know how to fuck things up don't I?
"I-I don't know. It's just something I heard somewhere, and I really don't have many "fristers" to prove the theory wrong." I use air quotes for fristers. That seems to calm her a little, and she becomes pensive.
"Yeah, I don't have any guy friends either, so maybe it could be true."
Wait…What? I think that hanging around Bella is leaving me in a constant state of dumbness. I can never understand what she's saying. Did she just say that we fall under one of the categories of my theory? We haven't had sex, we are not having sex, so that means we're going to? I think I'm panting, is this how a panic attack feels?
"But we can try right?" She's looking at me with that hopeful look again. Did she ask me something?
"Uhm?" She must think I'm mentally challenged.
"We can try to be friends right?" Oh, that!
"Yeah, sure we can." I try to smile but I don't think it comes out right at all. "I think we should test my theory." I smirk, and she blushes, looking down at her hands that are resting on her lap.
"So it's YOUR theory now?" she narrows her eyes, but I can see a hint of a smile playing on her lips.
"Yeah smartass, you caught me there! Now leave before I change my mind about being friends with you!" It's not like I want her to leave but this conversation is going places I don't know how to deal with yet.
"Good night friend" She leans forward and kiss me on the cheek. Oh sweet torture!
"Good night Bella." I watch as she walks into the front lobby, and drive the one block to get to my place.
Thursday, as usual, is my day off after shooting. The Imperador needs his beauty rest. Ha! I wake up a little after nine and take a quick shower, as quick as it can be with my new obsessive masturbation routine. My plans for today are hit the gym, maybe do some boxing to release my pent up sexual energy, and go grocery shopping. It's not like I cook or anything, but my beer and snacks stock must always be filled. It's funny that a porn actor can have sexual frustration to dissolve on the punching bag, but I do. It seems like since I've met Bella, no matter how many pussies I stick The Imperador in, it's never enough.
Another reason to work out is that starting tomorrow I'm shooting the action scenes for the movie. Real action scenes, with no sex and a lot of stunt fights, after all, the movie does have a plot, and Zorro fights a lot of bad guys to rescue his ladies. After that there'll be only the final and grand sex scene to shoot. It's usually epic, ending the movie in grand style. This time it's no different, all Zorro's damsels plan on rewarding him for his services and my five co-stars will be on set with me at the same time. I pray to all the pagan Gods up or down that Bella doesn't decide to show up on that specific day. I don't think I can pull off something like that with her hanging around.
I spend almost three hours at the gym, running on the treadmill, throwing punches and kicks at the punching bag, and even attempt to do a Yoga class, but when the Yoga teacher tries to grab my ass the second time while "correcting" my pose, I give up. The gym has a very nice cafeteria with a large variety of juices and sandwiches, so I decide to have lunch there after showering. I order a chicken and chive sandwich with a papaya and orange juice.
While I wait for the food to arrive I think about Bella. What's new right? It's a good thing that I'm not seeing her today, I still have to figure out how this friendship thing between us will work. How can you be friends with a woman that leaves your dick in a constant state of hardness, and is the star of your never ending sex dreams? I'm not sure that I can do that, but I don't think there's another option for us. So I'm going to give it a try, only I still don't know what that means.
The waiter brings my lunch and I'm glad because my stomach is growling loudly at this point. As I'm about to take my first very big and barbaric bite, someone pulls the chair out in front of me. I stop mid bite and my appetite flies out the window when I see that the intruder is no one other then fucking Irina. She's wearing a purple sports bra, with nothing on top of it, leaving her stomach on display for the entire gym, and matching work out pants.
I manage to bite the sandwich but I'm not able to swallow it. I sit there gaping at her with my mouth full and a piece of lettuce hanging out from my mouth.
"Eddie what a coincidence! I didn't know you came to this gym!" Yeah, right.
After I wash down the piece of sandwich with some juice without even chewing it I'm able to form a sentence.
"Yeah Irina, I've been a member here for quite some time now. But I've never seen you around before." Thank God for that!
"Oh Eddie, I'm a regular here. How do you think I keep up all this hotness?" Note to self: Find new gym.
"It's amazing how much we have in common! We should arrange a schedules to work out together. You know we always fit together perfectly." She's smiling seductively and scraping the back of my hand that's on the table with her fake white fingernails. My lunch is long forgotten and I'm making escape plans in my head.
"Sure thing Irina, I'll get in touch with you so we can arrange that." Just remember to sit down while waiting for it to happen.
Unfortunately I can't give her a rude answer. After all we're working together, naked, in less than a week, and I fear for the safety of The Imperador and his balls. After paying for my half eaten sandwich and barely touched juice, I stand up leaving Irina and her gigantic tits with the impression that we are now gym buddies. Fuck My Life!
The trip to the grocery store is quick since I already have my circuit memorized. First the beers, at least one national and two imported, a six pack of each. Then the snacks, frozen pizza, microwave popcorn, a large variety of chips, ice cream, pop tarts, and two different kinds of cereal. Some eggs, milk, bacon, coffee powder, and I'm all set. I'll probably have to order some Chinese later since my lunch was so slim.
On my way home, my cell rings and I glance at the display to see that's Emmet calling.
"Hey Big guy what's up?" Is Bella with him? Jezz I'm losing it!
"Hey Fro! I'm all good, just calling to check out if you made it to your appointment today." Shit I forgot!
"Oh, sure Em, I'm just getting there."
"Don't lie to me Eddie, I knew you would forget, that's why I have it programmed on my Blackberry, you should do the same." Yeah, I should, but I always forget to. I really should pay more attention to it. It's a strict rule of the company, all actors and actresses are supposed to get for STD's and other stuff every two weeks. If you miss an appointment you're benched from filming and with a foot out the door. They take these things very seriously even if we always wear condoms.
"Thanks Em, I really am on my way now."
"It's ok, that's what Fro's are for right? Besides I don't want your little soldier to fall off or anything, he's important to the business." He cracks up.
"Little soldier is the one that's up your ass!" That only makes him laugh harder, so I hang up.
The clinic is not far from where I am so I get there quickly. The nurses already know about my regular appointments so they have the charts all filled out by the time I get there. I thought that with the regularity with which I got tested it would raise suspicions about my lifestyle, and keep the women away. But apparently it had the opposite effect, they all seem very intrigued about who I a, and what I do, and the fact that my results always came back negative made them eager to go out with me. So I specifically request my own private nurse, her name is Ms Cope, and she must be around 70. It works out perfectly, because it's not a great idea to have a woman you've turned down stick needles in your skin.
The rest of the evening consists on watching soccer matches on TV, and eating a shitload of Chinese takeout. It's not even 9 o'clock when I call it a night, my heavy work out this morning is catching up with me and I feel really tired. The next morning I'm up before six, having gone to bed so early the night before, so I shower and drink some coffee, leaving the house forty minutes later.
It's good that I'm going to work so early for one simple reason, it reduces the chances of me being assaulted by Heidi. Even after Alice chastised her behavior she hasn't given up. Her attempts are more subtle now, like "sexy" glances and leg crosses, anonymous notes on my dressing room door. Although, thinking about it now, I'm not sure if those were from her.
During the entire morning I shoot back to back action scenes, fist fights, sword fights, firefights, I even took fencing classes for these, and by the time lunch arrives I'm already exhausted. I take a shower because even when fighting Zorro has oil all over his chest and arms. I decided to skip lunch, since I had eaten fruit from the buffet between shots, instead I lay on the couch to take a quick nap. Not even five minutes passes by before there's a sharp knock on the door, I open my eyes to see Jasper's floating head peek inside the room. Why the fuck don't I ever lock this door?
"Hey man, I was going to see if you'd like to come down to the diner to grab some lunch with me and Alice, but I guess not right?"
"Guessed correctly shithead!" I put an arm over my eyes and wait to hear the door close. But before it does, I can distinctly hear him say. "Bella is coming too." I bolt upright and in less than two seconds I'm out the door following him to the elevator. He smirks at me, and I just shrug my shoulders, because there's really not much to say about it, he knows I've got it bad.
Bella and Alice are waiting at the lobby, Bella is wearing a dark gray slim dress, with a skinny black belt around her waist that makes it look so tiny, and I have this overwhelming need to hold her. As soon as she sees me she gives a warm smile that lights up her whole face, and I feel like my heart is going to burst.
"Decided to join us superstar?"
"Hello Alice, how are you on this beautiful day?" I ask while picking her up from the floor into a tight hug, and ruffling her hair.
"Watch the hair! I swear if you do this one more time I'll tell Heidi you're secretly in love with her."
"That's just mean Alice." Bella chuckles while saying. "Hi Edward." And she extends her hand for me to shake.
"Hi Bella, thanks for caring about my safety, and don't think you can get out of getting a hug too." I'm a smooth bastard. She gives a little squeal when I grab her waist like I was dying to do, and spin her around. Her sweet scent flies around us, and I want to superglue my face to her slender neck and never leave that spot. Of course she blushes intensely and when I put her down she slaps me on the chest. I fake hurt, and say that she has to kiss me there to heal. She doesn't buy it though, and just sticks her pink tongue out at me playfully. The Imperador likes it and grins at her.
Bella sits next to me in our booth with Alice and Jasper sitting across from us. I order a coke and not a beer because I still have scenes to shoot after lunch. Bella orders an iced tea, and a Chicken Ceasar salad, Alice has the same, while Jasper and I have the Steak with garlic mashed potatoes.
"So we're all in for the lake house, right?" Alice asks while we wait for the food to arrive. I've totally forgotten that we were planning that trip.
"When are we going again Alice?"
"In two weeks, after you're all done with the movie. We're leaving on Thursday evening so we can have an extra night there, and we're all ditching work on Friday because we simply can."
"Whose lake house?" Bella asks.
"It's the Cullen family's house, it's a really short drive from here, but the area is very secluded and there's a view of the mountains and the lake, there are beautiful meadows around there too." Jasper explains and adds "Of course you're invited too Bella."
"Thanks Jasper, I'd love to come." He wiggles his eyebrows at me and I have to roll my eyes. I'm not sure if a long weekend with Bella and two other couples on the lake house would be such a good idea.
"We'll have so much fun!" Alice claps her hands and bounces a little on her seat.
Our food arrives, and we all dig in. I'm glad I decided to come along because I'm actually pretty hungry by now. Jasper is explaining all the activities we can do while we are at the lake, and at some point Alice changes the subject.
"So Bella, I was reading some of those short stories you wrote and they are awesome! I didn't know you could write so well, no offense of course."
"None taken Alice, but where did you get them?"
"I have my sources. So, are you publishing them? I think you should."
"No Alice, I don't think so, they're not that good, I only did them as class assignments for college. I'm really intrigued as how you managed to get a hold of them." She doesn't know the pixie's powers yet.
"I think you're being humble." And she avoids the question about her supposed sources. "I think you would do a great job writing new scripts for our movies. We sure are in need of some variety around here." Bella blushes and looks down at her lap.
"I don't think so Alice, I'm really not the best person for that." That's the same thing she said to me at our dinner the other night, I have to make a mental note to get to the route of her doubt sometime.
"And why the hell not!" Alice is not willing to leave it alone.
Just then we hear a throat clear in front of us. I'm sure the sound that escapes from my chest is close to a growl.
"What do you want James?" Jasper asks in a cold tone that's not usual for him. Nobody around After Twilight likes James, unfortunately we can't get rid of him so easily without breaking his contract, and we don't have anything concrete to blame him for, he's just a very shady guy that creeps everyone out. He's an actor like myself, well not really because he makes the movies I refuse to do, which are the ones with other guys. I draw the line there. I'm sure he's not gay though, DJ assured me of that and he can spot a gay man from miles away.
"I just want to introduce myself to our beautiful new boss." He answers never taking his eyes off from Bella. I can see that she's not comfortable because she keeps fidgeting on her seat. He extends his hand towards her.
"I'm James."
"B-Bella" She takes his hand but he doesn't shake it, instead he brings her hand to his filthy mouth and kisses it. She shivers and I place my hand on her shoulder to ease her. James eyes flicker from Bella to my hand, and I see a flash of something that I don't recognize. He releases her hand and nods at me.
"Masen."
"Smith."
"Well, I just wanted to meet the beautiful lady everyone is talking about." He leans in and whispers very close to her ear but loud enough so we can all hear. "If you ever want to see a real man in action, you should stop by the set while I'm shooting." I stand up in a flash, my fists balled up at my side, but Bella places her hand on my forearm.
"James, is it? I think you should watch the way you talk to your boss, especially when she can fire you by just snapping her fingers." And Bella snaps her fingers to emphasize her point. Once again his eyes travel to her hand on my arm and he smirks, standing up straight.
"Of course I wouldn't dream of disrespecting my lovely boss. I'm just proud of my work and I think you would appreciate the talent you have in your company. I'll let you get back to your lunch." He nods and turns to leave.
"I should go wash my hand."
"I'll go with you." Alice stands up and they both go to the bathroom.
"I can't believe that prick did that!" I punch the table, but what I really want to do is punch the hell of his ugly face.
"Yeah, but I'm impressed with the way Bella handled the situation. I'm still talking to Emmet about it though." Jasper is right, Bella really was great handling the pig. I'm very proud of her.
"Well that deserves some vodka shots, what do you think guys? Zero Degrees tonight?" Alice proposes.
"That sounds great honey; I'll invite Em and Rose." Jasper kisses her deeply, and Bella and I look away chuckling.
After another shower in my dressing room, what is it my third one today? I put on a pair jeans with a black t-shirt and leave to meet everyone at the bar. We decided to meet there and the first one to arrive would secure a table, since it's Friday night the place will be packed.
I come in and don't see them there yet, so I go to bar to say hello to Kate.
"Hey kid, decided to visit your old friends?" Kate is not even ten years older than me, but she insists on calling me kid, especially after we've slept together. I think it's her way of saying that it was a mistake and it won't happen again. I couldn't agree more. I owe a lot to Kate and Peter, to just to ruin everything with casual sex.
"Hey K, how are you? Are the guys here yet?"
"Nope, would you like your regular table?"
"Sure, that'd be great."
"Let's go, I'm taking a break, I'll sit with you while you wait for them. Beer?"
"You know it K."
She sits across from me at our regular table, both of us with beers in hand.
"So are all of you coming over tonight?"
"Yeah, all six of us."
"Six? When did you pair up?" She raises an eyebrow.
"I didn't, it's just Bella." JUST Bella! Blasphemy!
"Oh, The Chief's daughter! So how is she?"
"She's amazing K." Of course I have to sigh and she has to notice it.
"Hmmm someone has a crush. Spill it boy."
"I suppose you could say that I have a crush. We hooked up last weekend when we went clubbing in Port Angeles, but she was pretty wasted and blames it on the alcohol. I don't even know how much of it she remembers."
"I know the feeling." She snorts, obviously alluding to our one night. "But nothing else happened since then? It's hard to believe that she isn't attracted to you kid."
"I kinda think she is. But nothing happened. We always have a great time when we are around each other, and that's about it. I understand that she won't ever want to be in a relationship with me, and The Chief would shit a brick if he even suspected anything, you know he still holds a grudge against me."
Kate shakes her head. "Eddie, you did lots of stupid things in the past. But I know you weren't on your best behavior, you had a lot of shit to deal with. We all understand that, and we forgave you a long time ago, me and Peter, Carlisle and Esme, your friends, I'm sure Charlie has too. It's just more difficult for him to show it, you know he's a very introverted man."
"And your job is not the most conventional one, but you overcame a lot of crap with your work. Everyone can see how much you dedicate yourself to the company, literally. This Bella girl is going to be very lucky to have you in her life."
"Thanks K, you're too nice." She slaps me on the arm and scolds at me.
"I'm not kidding Edward, and I'm not just saying that to make you feel better, you can ask anyone and they'll tell you the same." She looks over my shoulder to the entrance of the bar. "Wow, she really is pretty, I can see why you're so taken with her, natural beauty like that is hard to find these days." I follow her gaze, and see Bella walking in with the rest of our group, she's still in her work clothes but she looks amazing. I smile and Kate pats me on the shoulder standing up. "Go get her tiger, you deserve it." She whispers in my ear, right before hurricane Alice bursts in her hugging her tightly.
"Kate I missed you so much!" She squealed. "You have to met Bella!"
"Hi, Kate I've already heard so much about you." Bella extends her hand, but Kate's having none of that, and pulls her into a hug. Bella hugs her back awkwardly and her resemblance to her father with that action is noticeable. "I've heard a lot about you too honey. What can I get you lovely ladies today?" She turns to the girls after releasing Bella. They all order double shots of vodka sticking to the plan made at lunch. I wonder if vodka has the same affect on Bella as tequila does, I guess I'll just have to wait and see.
The guys greet Kate and I order another round of beers for all of us. Kate brings back our drinks and soon a waitress arrives with French fries, onion rings, and chicken wings. Leave it to Peter to make sure we have something in our stomachs before we're getting wasted. Alice downs her shot in one swig and start recalling our lunch encounter with James to Em and Rose. I've never seen Rose so pissed, and then so proud when she heard how Bella handled him. She must really like her, because Rose doesn't really care about other people all that much, especially other women.
As their second double shot arrives at the table, Emmet challenges me for a game of pool. I really don't know why he even bothers because he always loses, but he doesn't seem to mind. So we get up and go to the table, Jasper comes along to be the judge. This must be the most distracted I've ever been while playing pool, Emmet actually wins the first round, but it's ok because we always play best out of three. The problem is I can't take my eyes of our table, where the girls are having their third shot, and are laughing and talking loudly, attracting a lot of attention.
"What the fuck!" I basically shout when a guy dressed in a suit comes up to their table and kisses the back of Bella's hand. What's up with that shit today? I want to go there, but the Fro's hold me back. I watch in horror while the weasel talks to her, and I'm freaking out because I can't hear what they're saying. I swear if she's interested in him I'm throwing up right here, in fact I can already start to feel the bile rising in my throat. Bella shakes her head saying something to him, and Rose, who's now sitting next to her, drapes an arm around her shoulder and leans in to give a long lingering kiss on her cheek. Bella closes her eyes and lens towards Rose too.
"What the Hell!" Now it's time for Emmet shout. All the blood that was in my angry upper head, heads down to the lower one. The guy turns to leave them, and in less than 2.8 nanoseconds, Em, Jazz and I are standing in front of them with matching stunned expressions, waiting for them to do something else. The pool game is long forgotten. The three of them take in our astonished faces and burst out laughing.
"What are you laughing about? Go on do something! I wanna see it!" Emmet, always the subtle one.
"You guys are too easy, of course they were just pretending. Mr. Designer Shoes, was bugging the shit out of Bella, so Rose pretended they were together." Alice killed our buzz.
"But, if you guys are really good boys, maybe we can show you something during the trip to the lake house." Fucking Bella says that. I can't believe it. She has a naughty look and is swirling a strand of hair around her fingers. Our jaws drop the floor in unison and drool is running down our chins, if my eyes get any bigger they'll pop out of my head.
"Told you, too easy." Says Rose as they start laughing their asses of again.
"No fair baby!" Jasper whines and lifts Alice from her seat to place her on his lap. Probably to show her what that little stunt did to him. Emmet pulls Rose up from her seat and she follows him, to where I don't wanna know.
Bella turns her attention to me when I sit down in the chair Rosalie was occupying. I can see that glint in her eye indicating that she might be a few sheets to the wind already, that and the grin plastered on her face as she looks at me.
"How many shots have you guys had Bella?"
"Uhh… three? No four? I dunno." She shrugs her shoulders and keeps grinning. "I can't really feel my mouth though." Oh dear God…
"All doubles?"
"Of course!" She giggles. "But you don't have to worry my friend, I won't attack you tonight." She says pointing at me and frowning in an attempt to look serious.
"I won't complain if you do friend." She playfully scolds at me, but can't hold it much longer and giggles again.
"So as we are now great buddies I'd like to know something about you." She says and lifts her legs placing them crossed at the ankles on my lap. The Imperador makes a happy dance at the possibility of some contact.
"What's that?" I'm worried about where this can go.
"I want to know a secret, you know, because friends share secrets with each others."
"Just one?" She thinks about it with her finger tapping her chin with the cutest expression on her face, and then grins again nodding.
"Yeah, just one for today."
"I have one condition."
"What is it?"
"You'll have to share one too." I'm such a genius sometimes, I amaze myself. She thinks a little more and shrugs again. "Ok, but I'll go first." I take her shoes off, and start massaging her feet. She throws her head back and moans. "God Edward that's so good!" Kill me now! I want to hear that again, and again, and again for fucking forever. The Imperador is actually whimpering now. She looks back at me and her eyes are a little hooded, which doesn't help my case at all.
"I wanna know, what your secret nickname is that Emmet was going to tell me that day at his house when we first met, and you cut him off." SHIT! Why the hell would she want to know that!
"Ugh…Bella that nickname wasn't exactly for me, per say."
"What do you mean it's not for you?"
"Um… I'm sure you don't want to hear about it, it's not that interesting." Please let's just drop it!
"I don't get it, if it's not for you, and it's not interesting why can't you tell me?"
"Is that really the secret you wanna know?" She nods. "For today yes."
"Ok, the nickname is not really mine, it's for my… penis." I whisper the last part.
"For your penis?" She asks loudly, I'm glad that Alice and Jasper are too busy sucking face to pay attention to our conversation.
"Yes." She giggles again, and I start wishing that a hole would open in the floor and swallow me.
"So, tell me what his nickname is?"
"It's Imperador."
"What?"
"Imperador."
"What does it mean?"
"It means Emperor. It's Portuguese."
"Just Imperador? He's emperor of what?" That's exactly what I thought when I named him, so I answer.
"No, he's The Imperador do Amor, which means Emperor of Love." She looks at me with a blank expression and blinks a few times before she starts laughing hard, almost falling off her chair. I stop rubbing her feet and cross my arms in front of my chest, pouting. I'm kind of hurt. She sees my discomfort, and stops laughing wiping away tears from her eyes and rubs my arm gently with her hand.
'I'm really sorry Edward, I didn't mean to laugh at you. That was just very unexpected. I never would've guessed. Would you mind telling me how you came up with that?" I can't stay mad at her because I know that shit is funny and that that's the usual reaction people have to his name. I was young when I came up with it and I thought it was cool at the time. Then I just became used to it and never changed, so I tell her that.
"I think it was a littler after I turned thirteen when I came up with that. My father traveled a lot on business and he always brought me comic books from the places he went. One time I think he didn't really pay attention to what he was buying and he brought me these comics from Brazil, but they were really erotica with cartoon pictures. Of course it became my favorite comic ever, and there was this guy called Imperador do Amor that had all the girls he wanted, so I started calling my dick that. It made sense at the time."
"Of course it did, I can totally understand why you chose this name. But it is funny, maybe we should make a movie dedicated to him!" She clasps her hands with her brilliant idea. That reminds of something I want to ask her, and that will be the secret I'll get from her.
"So are you done, can I ask my secret now?" She nods biting on her bottom lip and I go on. "I want to know, why it is that when someone suggest that you write a script for a movie at After Twilight, you say you can't?" She blushes and tries to take her legs out of my lap but I hold her calves and trace patterns on them with my thumbs. She seems to relax a little and takes a deep breath.
"I don't know Edward. I just think that it's big deal and a lot of responsibility. I don't know if I'm a good enough writer."
"That's not fair Bella, I just told you a very embarrassing thing about myself, and you almost fell on your ass laughing for Christ Sake! Now answer me honestly, don't give me the "not a good writer" crap because from what I've heard from Alice at lunch today, that's a lie." She was thinking and biting her lip so hard I'm worried that she'll draw blood.
"This will not leave here right?"
"Of course Bella, don't you trust me?"
"I do" She whispers. "It's really embarrassing, but the reason that I can't write scripts for a porn movie is because I'm not experienced." She said looking away from me.
"I don't understand, Alice mentioned your short stories and I'm sure you had to write a lot of things for college." She shakes her head and looks me in the eye.
"No Edward, that's not the kind of experience I'm talking about." My hands stop around her calves and my breath hitches.
"Ar-Are you a virgin?" Now I'm whispering.
"No, it's not that! I've had sex. It just wasn't any good." She swallows hard looking away before locking her eyes with mine again. "I never came."
What? I must have blacked out a little there, did I just hear her say she never came while having sex?
"What did you say?"
"I never came Edward, it wasn't good, I've never had an orgasm."
